Have you accepted a position that you weren’t sure about?
Especially, if you weren’t working, and needed to get employed again.
And you considered it borrowed time, to get you by, until you found the ideal company, position, salary, etc.
And then 2-3 years later, you realized you didn’t do what you originally had in mind.
I believe this happens to many.
If you’re currently in it, maybe it’s time to consider enough of your time has been borrowed.